If I Could Have Kept You An Only Child…

If I could have kept you an only child….things would have stayed a lot calmer, quieter, and more organized around here….

But then I would have missed the chance to say “screw it”, while I leave the dishes unattanded, the house a mess, and sit out on the back patio watching the three of you roughhouse, drinking my well- deserved beer.

If I could have kept you an only child…we would probably have a lot more time for long, meaningful, heart-to-hearts….

But then I would have missed watching the sheer delight each one of you gets, when the other one farts.

If I could have kept you an only child…..I’m absolutely certain I would have been on time everywhere I went…

But then I would have missed the extra love my heart gained, each time we added to our family a new little gent.

If I could have kept you an only child…..I would have spent at least one third less of my time doling out warning after warning after warning….

But then I would have missed seeing that tender hug the two of you snuck, when saying goodbye this morning.

If I could have kept you an only child….maybe our life wouldn’t feel like such a muddle….

But then I wouldn’t get the blissful experience of walking into the bedroom, to see all three of you, curled up together in the ultimate cuddle.  

If I could have kept you an only child, I wouldn’t feel like my entire existence was spent breaking up a fight…

But then I would have only been given ONE chance to get this whole parenting thing right.

If I could have kept you an only child, I wouldn’t have to deal with all the smell, mess, and pee, that comes from living with four men…

But then I wouldn’t have been able to to re-live the joy of first cries, first steps, first teeth, and first “I love you’s”  over and over and over again.

If I could have kept you an only child, I just know I’d be so much sweeter…

But then I wouldn’t have any good excuse for why my house isn’t cleaner and neater.

If I could have kept you an only child, I bet I actually COULD “nap when you nap”…

But then I would never know what it feels like to have one angel by my side, another in my arms, and a third in my lap.  

If I could have kept you an only child, I think I’d feel better about myself in a lot of ways..

But then I would be fooled into believing I didn’t need God nearly as much, to get me through each of my days.

If I could have kept you an only child, maybe I’d have more time to spend reading up on things that interest me, like the human psyche…

But at least this way, I’m increasing the odds that at least ONE of you grows up and still likes me.

If I could have kept you an only child, I’d probably be a better wife..

But then I wouldn’t have had the distinct priviledge of being able to give each of you a best friend for life.

 

(Inspired by Marianne Richmond’s book “If I Could Keep You Little”)

 

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